Bangalore.....

15th June' 2006...thats teh day i landed at Bangalore, the city of gardens , but for me like thousands, it was the first place to start my carrer.
I joined IBM the next day. I was pretty excited and that probably took me off my feet for a couple of days.

After my parents left.. was all alone here.. the lonliness is sumthing which i not only dislike, rather hate to be with.... but many a times u cant avoid thats avoidable... and there i was..

U have frds.. u have ppl , u have collegues ard u.. but somewhere at the core of ur heart.. u feel th e lonliness.. u miss a company of somene who would listen to u, the words from the depth fo ur heart.. from ur soul... someone.. who would sit for hours , just to hear u... to be with u .

I go to Malls, brigade road to roam ard.. to get freshen up.. but is that what i always wanted..? i roam ard for no reason.. just to kill my time.. but that too suck being alone.. it feels like u r all alone in teh world of familiar ppl...and ur the one beign left out.

thats not where i wanted to be.. thats not where i wish to be...

but is it the place, wehre i dont want to be.. or is it the state of my mind.. where i dont wanna be..??
its rather the state... as any place can eb heven .. or hell , lonely or familiar.. if u have a "company" to accompany u.

Someone whispered sumthing....

..........
I loved the child in her
so innocent and sweet
The mischief in her eyes
the blush upon her cheek,

The innocence in her words
that showed me that she cares
The touch of her warm hand
that gently touched my hair,

The smiles that we shared
that filled my life with glee,
with those untold words, n moments together we shared..
I found the child in me............

What life has for me ..???

Yes its the first post from me.
Some times when i sit and ask myself what life has for me. i start wondering what life had for me, then the whole life at IIT Kgp flashes before my eyes. The journey which started with the fist day when i entered at JCB, in 2001, with glittering dreams of becoming a world class Engineer from IIT( though it shattered within few months after that) to the 5th year of dual degree.
Throughout these years, i always wanted to leave the place.... but now when its almost time to leave it.... my heart ponders a little.

But.... change is inevitable. JEE changed my life some five years ago and it will change again some five years since then.

But when at times i wonder, what i would be on the same day, a year from now.......?? Well, let time say it when the time comes. but truely its the time to work for making the change in favour of mine.